i blog because i feel emptiness in my life. i envy lynette, i envy everyone with a best friend. selfishly leaving me with no one. how to go on with life? yes, laugh at me. laugh loud to joke about the fact that christie has no best friend.

okay, a bf is not counted. its not like a best friend. its all different. =/

ah, i respect you for who you are and i hate you for what you are. you wouldnt understand anyway. i just hate you.

school is boring, art is killing me and the other subjects are strangling me. true enough, i hate school but i have to attend. you know what for and i admit so i try to not hate it. then it starts to get me going with work, so on and so forth.

read a book called 'i believe you' by low kay hwa. got to this book by karmen and she borrowed it from rui jie.

this is a story about a girl called joanna fung and a guy called jacky wu. along with joanna's only friend, landy. i almost cried reading this and its a good catch. buy it at goodybooks now!! it doesnt even cost you 1o bucks. worth piece.

but if you really the thrifty kind then okay lah. go to ibelieveyou to read the online story. but no ending. thats why damn budget. buy the book to read lah. its like $6.8o each. =D enjoy okay.

well, went for a movie after choir with bian. he fell asleep in there. i also dont know why. anyway, its called 'In her shoes' starring cameron diaz and i dont really know the names of the other people in there. shes awesome, the show is awesome and most importantly, what precious friendship they showed is damn awesome. for some reason, i cried while watching. probably because i havent had something like that happening to me.

i may buy the book at $13 after a 2o% discount at popular. its great. catch the show alright.

then went home with everyone in black, as usual. i think i can never return home with everyone looking happy. never. phone bill came and mine was $79.3o i think. i forgot the cents part. i had to pay $5o. great. pay when she is the one who has money. pay with the money i use to buy cny clothes. just great.

i hate school, i hate holidays. i dont know what i like. i dont even like shopping now.

i just hope i'll rot and die right now. if not, soon.

;i am afraid